I had a blog for years back when blogging was new. Initially I started it as an outlet for all my bullshit, since I'm too poor for therapy. I did porn back then (gay porn I'm a homo) and somehow or another it got popular. Eventually it defeated the purpose of having the blog in the first place. Since it wasn't done with any anonymity people I knew were reading it too and it reached a point where I couldn't actually say anything I wanted to say anymore. There was constant self-censorship so that I could be sure I didn't hurt anyone's feelings or that whatever boy I was chasing after couldn't see me gush about him, or whine about him or whatever the case may have been at the time. Suffice it to say this time around I plan on maintaining my anonymity, because ultimately this blog is a selfish endeavor, more for me than for you. Also, its not at all unlikely that I'll make this one post, and forget this thing exists.
Let me give you the basics. I'm an ex gay porn star. Currently I work in the offices of a gay porn company, doing graphic design work and hiring the models. Of late I'm a complete emotional disaster. I do too many drugs. There's this boy...God that's a whole entry itself. You get the idea. More later.
